Very often we love so long and so hard,

asking, “How can it be that they don’t love us back?”

But you have to know,

God is right there behind, asking you the very same question.

these words are in the sign-off of my drums coach's email. it doesn't entirely explain the state of my mind earlier but it certainly rings true.

did you miss it? someone's teaching me to drum. i start tomorrow. it's actually quite a miracle that i got this far. once again, i owe it all to my Lord.