come again?

photos and inspiration from:
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/ap/20090923/tap-as-australia-dust-storm-2nd-ld-write-79704af.html
 

i almost missed the above news last night. i only saw on tv a 'masked' woman talk about the colour of the sky when the dust storm came upon the city. the city was shrouded in dust after a gust of cold wind blew in. this morning, as i was just stepping out of the house, i witnessed something quite terrifying. on my right, the sky's the hue of a dewy and sunny morning. on my left, a blanket of light grey. then, while i waited for the lift, the drama unfolded. perhaps i exaggerated but it's really my first time catching those moments before a storm happened. this should be a hundred times less terrifying than to witness a twister approaching towards you and you thinking to yourself "left or right?". this should be a thousand times less tormenting than when Egypt went w/o light for 3 days for i would certainly go mad in under one day. the sydney dust storm came into mind as well. i was actually half expecting the dust storm to visit my country soon. i sent Abba a silent prayer to protect us as i rushed to work. the dark grey mist lifted and the winds stopped howling as soon as raindrops fell upon us.

as i travelled to work, i wondered how things would be like if what i witnessed earlier was just a mini mini prelude to His second coming. He said he would come like a thief in the night, when you least expect Him. it's probably not time yet but what if it's really Him? shouldn't i be elated? i'd more likely say: hold on! i'm not done here on earth yet, my Lord! so many dreams of mine yet fulfilled, and what of the many souls yet to be saved? surely You will delay judgement?

i've been in funk lately. maybe this is a preview of what's to come. but there's so much fear. when will i ever be ready? i'm afraid what i do best is make a mockery of His promises. i always said i was willing. how shall i escape? His goodness pursues me.

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easier to talk about shallow stuff, yes? i could ace that, yea. i mentioned i seldom mall-shop these days. i hardly even shop alone these days. it's funny how one becomes more chicken as one ages. i'd like to think it should be the opposite. all that wealth of experience should give us the edge. i always have to swallow my owns words. this is one thing that i really wish i can hold onto. anyways, i bought this gem some weeks back. i almost didn't see it. the price was still a little on the high side but it's really a worthy investment. my SIL kept complimenting me.

and it's so very comfortable. easy to dry and no ironing needed.

I WIN.