going forward

very yummy lunch cooked by ma. fried instant noodles with minced pork, egg, spinach, wolfberries, garlic. the fried garlic's so fragrant and the sweetness of the wolfberries went really well with the veg and meat.

 

i have resumed drums classes but come next year learning drums may have to take a backseat again. i'm so not looking forward to the Extra Curricular Activity (work) that awaits me for the next 3 months. then there's school. 2010 will be a year of tests for me.

i'm actually not even cramming much into my life, if you knew what my typical day entails. i'm really not good with stress. or maybe i dunno myself that well; i'm really just making excuses for myself? i know i have to step it up sooner or later. school will be tougher as i go into the next academic year. and the work... let's just say i expect the load to weigh heavier. i really wish i could be more positive about the upcoming challenges. it's a mixed bag of emotions.

my ma's house is undergoing the change first. you might've noticed the cardboard boxes piling higher and higher in the background of my recent outfit posts. lol. some are empty ones for packing while the rest are the new kitchen stove and other fixtures, etc. the walls are getting a fresh coat of paint. my bro chose these:

       

^above the dining table.

^living room's lights.

i've been thinking about getting a set of drums. but there're constraints. one of them is space. if i have extra space, my clothes and bags and shoes would usurp it first. the other big constraint or rather constraints are: me, myself and i. my coach suggested last week that i could think about getting graded. i honestly never gave it a thought. i think my roots have grown so deep into that zone that i've simply stopped going for gold. it's really a miracle that i've come so far during these past 2 years. i know how ludicrous that might sound to many people.  i can tell you i'd still be dreamless if not for the courage and hope that can only be drawn from my saviour. on my own, all i did was self-destroy. i agree with my coach that there's no harm in going for that goal. i ought to. i should.  

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Jeremiah 29:11