dare

happy new year! 

chandy

i've been up to... some stuff... was  just not too inspired to log them in this space.

 i did get a new look following this post. and again i was wishy washy about whether i liked it. was tempted to cut the hair even shorter. the curls have tamed a little, so i'm in two minds still. and of course i got all kinds of comments from the colleagues about the hair. what's new. i think i'm more sickened by myself than anything else. it's like i'm the betrayer of myself. i want it yet i don't want it. 

tres chic

it's the same on every other front, it seems. i'm just so sick of being like this. i want to venture out, yet when i did, i wasn't sure i wanted that something new.

the above two wall coverings are on my radar now, amongst many other stuff. it's rather unlike me. yet i want them quite badly. but i don't trust myself. i can't afford to waste more money and time, really. yet i refuse to settle. the problem is, my choices are few. 

i want everything.

i want nothing.