existential

this is how to add bulk. watch and learn.
i'm not kidding, ok.
i'm vain but not enuf to dress girly or princessy and look horrible.
so, i'd rather look nice as a tomboy.
but hor, this is so comfortable.
tomboys should love to wear dresses, you think?

i have a wedding dinner to attend this evening. i clean forgot. it's scary. it wasn't the first time this month. earlier this month, after i finished one paper (of two),  i completely forgot to attend a briefing session for the next paper. i really need to do something about it. i was just looking at the wedding invite last week. if not for a message from an ex-colleague that she couldn't attend due to a last-minute work trip, i'd have passed my sunday surfing and watching tv or maybe having my hair makeover. i could still do my hair. or go for a facial that's been long overdue. but i'm just so darn lazy. i'd like to take a nap before i head out. i haven't thought about what i'd wear. i guess it's going to be something chinoi again.

i have to do something about my failing memory. other than consuming lingzhi, how can i improve it? i'm such a free person yet i can forget so easily about the very few events that request for my presence. things like fleaing - i remember to remember. everything else, apart from going to work and to church, i forget to remember. i never really built up a habit to note things down. sometimes, if i remembered to remember, i'd use the cellphone. i tried to keep a small diary. i guess there's no point since my life was so filled with nothing. spending money and hence keeping track of expenditure is probably the only thing that i can put in a diary.

time to wake up my idea.