cold feet

it's been chilly of late i always just wanted to put on warm clothes and clad my legs in thick footwear. it's not so brrrrr today yet i felt my toes were going to fall off. why's that? am i suffering from a condition, like how some people have sweaty palms? i seem to have the 'cold hands' condition too.

anyway, since it's not so chilly today, i wore my 3rd pair of purple shoes bought this year (i haven't worn the 2nd pair). quite a bit of toe cleavage. they're very tight at the front. but they fit good when i bought them. dammit.

i'm still having cold feet about the difficult year ahead. two of my colleagues left the office at close to midnight last night. i imagine my turn will come soon. i was already clocking a few long days at work during this period when many others were on vacation. i'm fine w/o the break. i'm just chicken sh:t about the upcoming challenges. i was so hard pressed yesterday i think much of my brain cells died from the exertion. but what's more troubling was that i felt misunderstood. maybe i was being over-sensitive. i really wish i could tell the bosses what really happened. do you speak up when you think your silence might be misconstrued? would things change or work for you if you spoke up? my quandary concerns work. i'm caught between two hard places. i was ready to send off the email but i kept stalling the action. i confided in two colleagues. both opined that it's probably best i let things be for now. hmpf.