参与者 vs 旁观者

today's message at church was... nothing new that we haven't heard before. i can't recall if it's similar to last year's. i suppose it's typical this time of the year. when we take stock and wrap up the current year and plan for the new year.

it shook me up good. but it's nothing new, this emotion, this place. i've been musing about it forever. is it going to be the same old same old in 2010? i think i should fear this posibility more than the summation of the fears i have.