云想衣裳花想容

i felt i wore the wrong shoes only upon reaching the office. i'd thought to wear the pink shoes but i just went for these instead. anyway, they ought to be retired ages ago. they're one size smaller. but it's such a shame cos they're still very sturdy. one of the few pairs that i've had for so long w/o the rubber soles disintegrating. i'm just such a hopeless hoarder, lah. this issue brought to mind what this blogger's said about consumerism. i identify with her on this point and do always struggle with my inability to stop buying more clothes and shoes and bags. i'd always wonder at the sheer magnitude of how humans burden our planet. and i'm not helping but adding my contribution to suffocating it with my lunch takeaways alone. i'd imagine the number of styrofoam  containers and plastic cutlery and disposable chopsticks discarded by one building's worth of people. then multiply that by buildings on one section of the street. so on, and so forth. the only consumer products i don't choke earth with are electronic gadgets (i've bought some vintage cameras, though. the only credit i can claim is that i'm using existing things and not new ones). 

still on the blogger's philo. i'd like to agree with her on investing in quality clothes and shoes and bags which actually help to save money and the planet. but i'm not convinced of the quality of some expensive things. so i refuse to pay too much for certain things, especially clothes and shoes. as for bags, i went down the slippery slope of buying branded ones. i don't regret the purchases but i also think that the money spent could have been spent on other... stuff, such as trips to unfamiliar places, etc. i do feel that i'd gone overboard with the baals and should really detox my collection to a mere couple which i can use to death. but. i'm not sure i wanna sell them cheap. i don't think i can fetch more than 1/3 of the price i paid for them. i could pass them on to my ma/sil/niece. or maybe i really have a deeper problem that's to do with my psyche, going by my tendency to hoard. even if i do end up letting them go, i suspect that i'd be back to acquiring things again... i do admire the blogger's self-discipline and would like to emulate it. to my own defence, when i buy clothes, i do try to think long-term. in fact, believe it or not, i never wore many dresses until the recent years. i'm still in the experimentation stage, so  in this sense, it's my way of building the perfect wardrobe. for example, this dress above was something i'd usually not grow guts to wear. it's still not really me but i think i kinda licked it this time. i don't do long sleeves well but wearing it unbelted seems to 'proportionalise'  the entire look.

i actually just blogged about a wardrobe review. but i'll need feedback. do you agree that the dress suits me fine? i must confess that i do still like and wish i could keep some of the clothes in my shop. these include some of those that i've managed to sell. maybe you wonder why i'd still be building a wardrobe at this ripe age. well, there's a valid reason behind it. i'd only begun to be able to afford more things during these past 3 years. i figured that it's time to reward myself after the sacrifices i've made (due to bad choices). and i've since paid for the consequences.  

how do i end this self-talk? ha ha. i hope i can report some improvements the next time i broach on the subject.