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just binned this after mulling for some weeks. i won a voucher actually but dunno why i'd stalled. of course, i should be saving aggressively now that i'm really broke due to the changes in my life's priorities. tbh, i can't do without the normal income -- which was already insufficient. 

many, many things going on in my head. i just dunno how to talk about it. am i suffering from some condition? but can one be so lucid when one's mind or heart's afflicted? so afflicted that one can do online shopping like it's eating and sleeping?