ai-yo

there's something wrong about the length of the pants both left and right... perhaps i shouldn't have worn the warmers? they're the same pants worn here and here. while they gave the illusion of more apparent buttocks, they also seemed to broaden my thighs at some angles. whatever. the outfit might lead people to wonder if i was in my right mind. the weather's been erratic again. my nose was sprinting the 1st half of the day; the outfit had kept me cuddled in the office. and goodness - the hair's such a mess at the back. this really might be the last time to have my hair that long.     

i've been in that same place of uncertainty and distrust again recently. as forecasted then, the load had really been piling on. and school hasn't even started yet. i did wonder if it's just all in my head but  this week 's events seemed to signal that perhaps it's time to do something about it. i didn't want to be rash. but i was so disheartened twice in just this week, enuf to let my emotions spill a lil.i  told my supervisor today that i might make alternative work arrangements for the next half of the year. now i wonder if i should've brought it up  later. i shared with her a bit of my honest thoughts and she's said some things in response. i'm not sure i wanna delve deeper into it anymore; i simply cannot lie to save myself. i might have painted myself into a corner. well done, 十十f十.